Fuck, I absolutely hate school. It’s just not my thing. I really don’t wanna go school but working now made me realize a lot. Not only that but my parents make me realize a lot. I always make excuses or say the same shit about school & blah blah blah about changing, but I really am. Starting Fall 2012.. Yes, next year, I’m gonna put school before everything. Haha yeah that’s if I don’t get pregnant along the way -.- but anyway. Idk.. Guess just thought about it. I really need a degree or something just something with a career or a good paid job. I’m just wasting my time now on all these low paid jobs. I keep telling myself to bite my tongue for couple years & just deal with not having all the fancy things & once I’m done with school, I’ll be set for life. I just need support :( & it’s not coming from anyone. They’re even putting me down more but because of that, it really pushes & makes me strive harder to prove everyone they’re fucking wrong. “success, is the best revenge”. & I told myself, even if I get pregnant along the way ( cause my boyfriend is getting older every day ) I still will continue school or at least finish some sort of schooling so I can at least financially be set. Can’t wait till that day comes. Maybe I won’t be making $40/ hr like I want as a nurse. But as long as I’m financially stable & happy, that’s all that matters. I rather have a normal home than a big home with nothing to be happy about. I think being happy is the most important thing. Anyway idk where this post is going but I’m so disappointed in my parents & what they say. I think I just need to shut them up & maybe cos of them, I’ll thank them later for making me stronger.