Because sometimes, it's easier written than said., is he ever apologetic about it? do you bring it up a lot? i used to bring it up a lot but then it got to the point where it was pointless to keep asking questions and wanting to know every detail. now i just hold it it and like you, i mind fuck myself. i replay it in my head over and over again. and idk if its worth it because im hurting myself by mind fucking myself. but its hard to let him go since ive been with him for so long.

is he ever apologetic about it? do you bring it up a lot? i used to bring it up a lot but then it got to the point where it was pointless to keep asking questions and wanting to know every detail. now i just hold it it and like you, i mind fuck myself. i replay it in my head over and over again. and idk if its worth it because im hurting myself by mind fucking myself. but its hard to let him go since ive been with him for so long.

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he was apologetic then.. not anymore. we argue every time I bring it up. like i really do bring it up when something he does, or we see something that reminds of it, then i’ll bring it up. but i came to realized, it is pointless too. every time i do, i’m pissing myself off more and me and him end up arguing. my boyfriend isn’t really a sincere guy… like he’s different. he was sorry then, but not anymore. actually, idk if he was ever sorry. there’s time where he even said he wasn’t but idk. he says a lot of shit LOL.. yep, just keep yourself busy and don’t think about it. but i honestly think it’ll stay with you forever… even if you marry him or have kids with them. i mean, how can you forget it? even if you guys break up and start a relationship with anther guy, i bet you can’t ever trust another guy again. cause 99.99% guys are the same shit! and honestly, if they cheat, they’ll do it again… like i really do think so. that’s why i’m so fucked up in the head and in the back of my head i’m thinking all these shit when he’s out, and this is why me and him are where we are today. we have no trust for one another, whatsoever. but it’s so weird.. even my boyfriend says it. we don’t even know why we’re together… like me and him actually sit there and argue over an hour, TALKING SHIT TO ONE ANOTHER. like we sit, and yell, scream, fight and tear one another apart… we say the worst things any couple can say to one another. we bring each other to both one another’s lowest point… so sad.. it really is. idk what it is or why i’m with him till this day.. maybe i’m just ‘comfortable’ or just ‘used to it’. but also, maybe people really do change…